21st October 2008

50% of happiness, 30% of sadness, 20% of complication

having exams.. finals.. me n danial's feeling faded although we're still together.. i finally dare 2 tell him how i feel.. we're rushing things too fast.. how can we be together when our feelings faded? so we both agreed to be friends.. we need to know each other more 1st before being with each other..

so there's where my 30% of sadness came from..

after skul.. jun yih fetch me home from skul.. we planned 2 go genting to meet his fren.. first, we took ktm from subang parade to kl sentral.. that's my 1st time taking ktm after 10 years.. after that.. from kl sentral we took bus to genting.. it cost us around 9 bucks.. included genting skyway.. which is the cable car..

we reached kl sentral around 6.15pm.. from there.. we bought a 7pm bus fair to genting.. i was really tired that day.. i slept in the bus until we almost reach there.. i saw the view of genting.. it took my breath away.. freaking nice.. skyway there was pretty empty compare 2 the last super peak holiday.. no need even wait can straight away enter the cable car d.. hahaha..

the cable car took us 20 minutes to arrive.. we cant really see the view.. all we can see is the deep jungle n lots of lots of mist.. scary too.. cause its really dark at that time.. 8.30pm.. once we reach there.. we saw his fren sitting there feeling lonely.. waiting for us.. poor them.. they've been there since morning.. they've walked the whole genting while waiting 4 us.. wow.. imagine wei..!!

well.. jun yih's fren started to annoyed us.. they need 2 go home b4 10pm.. but thats totally impossible.. we finally cant stand it anymore.. freaking annoying.. so we went to the bus counter.. n bought us 4 tickets 2 get us out.. unfortunately.. me n jun yih wanted to take the last bus which is 12pm.. but they dun let.. so.. we bought 10pm bus fair..

so basically.. we pergi genting.. chill for 45 minutes then chao.. wow.. chun sial.. but the weather there is the only thing that i enjoy all the time.. n the mist too.. whenever i talk.. there's smokes coming out from my mouth.. imagine how cold it is.. plus that time we went was raining day.. syok gile.. junyih's fren are both couples.. so i dare junyih 2 hold my hand n act couple infront of them.. he really hold my hand n never let go.....

n thats how my 50% of happiness came from..

i have to admit that i miss my ex.. zhenbon.. even when im with danial.. i cant stop thinking of him.. i think thats y my feelings towards danial faded.. but i cant do anything.. the only thing i can do now is think n understand his feeling.. respect his decision.. do whatever makes him happy.. all the best zhenbon.. i have to learn to let go of u.. let us stuck just only in our dream.. but not real life.. i miss you~~

well, thats how my 20% of complication came from..